#past life memories

[sofiatarot]

PAC: All about your past life

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Tongues of the past whisper secrets of what’s to come.

Each group reveals one of your many lives, the posible effects on your present self, and a message from your past to guide your journey.

Breathe deeply, trust your intuition, and select the group that calls to you.

Group 1

Who you were:

In a past life, you were someone in a position of significant authority, possibly a ruler, leader, or influential figure. This was a life of immense responsibility, but also of imbalance and misuse of power. You might have been a male figure—someone admired for their strength but also feared for their rigidity. Despite your outward success, there was a lack of harmony in your reign. Personal ambition often overrode empathy, and material wealth became a focal point of your existence. This fixation on control created tension among those around you, especially as your leadership style leaned heavily on domination rather than collaboration.

Your world was one of cycles—times of prosperity followed by periods of stagnation or conflict. This instability suggests that, while you sought greatness, you neglected the emotional and spiritual foundations necessary to sustain your achievements. People admired your strength but questioned your methods, creating a rift between your external accomplishments and internal fulfillment. It’s possible that you were betrayed by close allies or left isolated by your own actions.

How it affects you now:

This past life has left an imprint on your present in subtle yet profound ways. You might find yourself struggling to balance ambition with emotional connection. While you are deeply sensitive and emotionally intelligent, expressing those emotions can feel vulnerable or even risky. You may also feel that you must constantly defend yourself or prove your worth, as if echoes of past conflicts still linger.

Creative and emotional blocks can manifest as frustration or a lack of direction. Perhaps you have many ideas or passions but struggle to bring them to fruition. Relationships might feel uneven, with you giving more than you receive, or vice versa, echoing the imbalances of your leadership in that past life.

On the positive side, this life has gifted you with resilience and the ability to navigate challenges with grace. You have the potential to lead with empathy and create harmony where there once was discord. These strengths emerge when you embrace vulnerability and trust in the support of others.

Message from your past self:

Release the need to control everything around you. True leadership lies in collaboration and trust, not domination. Open your heart to the cycles of life, understanding that every ending is also a new beginning. Your destiny is not bound by past mistakes; it is shaped by your willingness to learn and grow.

Astro Influences:

I feel this group resonates strongly with the energies of capricorn, pisces, and leo. The presence of these signs suggests themes of ambition, spiritual growth, and creative self-expression. The influence of the 10th house highlights your focus on legacy and responsibility, while the 12th house points to deep spiritual lessons tied to your inner world.

Group 2

Who you were:

In this past life, you lived in an environment steeped in mysticism and secrecy, possibly as someone connected to spiritual practices or esoteric knowledge. You may have been a woman, a healer, or a guide, but your talents and intuition were either misunderstood or manipulated. This life was marked by internal conflict and external challenges, as your wisdom often clashed with societal norms or personal fears.

You held immense power within you, but it often felt inaccessible or suppressed. Perhaps you doubted your abilities, or others undermined your confidence, leading to moments of isolation. A sense of unfulfilled potential lingers from this life, as though you were always on the brink of greatness but unable to fully manifest it. The reversed high priestess and queen of wands suggest that you may have been betrayed by someone close, possibly another figure of authority or influence.

Despite these struggles, your creativity and passion burned brightly. You were deeply connected to the cycles of life, finding beauty in both creation and destruction. However, there was an underlying lesson you were unable to grasp fully in that life—how to balance personal empowerment with trust in others.

How it affects you now:

This life’s influence may manifest as moments of self-doubt or hesitancy to step into your power. You might feel as though your voice is unheard or that your talents go unrecognized. Trust issues, especially with authority figures or peers, could stem from betrayals in that past life. There may also be an inclination to downplay your worth, fearing judgment or rejection.

Emotionally, this past life may lead you to question the intentions of those around you, leaving you guarded or hesitant to form deep connections. On the positive side, this life has gifted you with heightened intuition and creativity, allowing you to see possibilities where others see obstacles. You have a natural ability to transform pain into art or beauty, but it requires a conscious effort to embrace your inner power fully.

Message from your past self:

Do not hide your light out of fear. The world needs your unique perspective and gifts, even if they challenge the status quo. Trust in your intuition—it has been your guide through lifetimes. Let go of past wounds, for they no longer define you. Step into your power and allow yourself to shine without restraint.

Astro Influences:

This group has the energies of scorpio, sagittarius, and the 8th house, representing transformation, hidden knowledge, and personal power. The reversed cards suggest lessons related to chiron, the wounded healer, and neptune, symbolizing intuition and illusion.

Group 3

Who you were:

In this past life, you were someone deeply connected to structure and order, likely a figure of significant influence. The judgment card suggests a life of awakening and responsibility, where you were tasked with bringing clarity or justice to others. You were likely a man—someone who balanced the weight of leadership with personal growth. However, this life was not without its struggles. The emperor shows your strength and determination, but the reversed 7 of cups and 10 of wands point to moments of confusion and overwhelm.

Your story speaks of a person torn between duty and desire. You held a clear vision for the future but often felt burdened by the expectations of others. Despite this, you created stability and inspired those around you, even if it came at a personal cost. This lifetime taught you the value of perseverance, even in the face of adversity, but also left behind a sense of longing for personal freedom.

How It affects you now:

The connection between the emperor in your past and the empress in your present is significant. In this life, you are learning to balance masculine and feminine energies, merging structure with creativity and action with receptivity. You may feel a pull toward leadership or responsibility but struggle to balance these roles with your personal needs.

This past life has gifted you with resilience and a strong sense of purpose, but it also brings challenges. You might feel the weight of others’ expectations or struggle to prioritize your own desires. There is a tendency to overwork or take on too much, mirroring the burdens of your past. However, the lessons of this life also offer immense growth, teaching you to trust in collaboration and embrace the support of others.

Message from your past self:

Embrace the balance within you. Allow yourself to lead with compassion and create with structure. You are not alone in your journey—let others share the weight of your dreams. Trust in the power of collaboration, for it is through unity that true greatness is achieved.

Astro Influences:

This group probably resonates with aries, taurus, and libra, highlighting themes of leadership, creativity, and partnership. The presence of the 4th and 10th houses emphasizes the importance of balancing personal and professional life.

Group 4

Who you were:

In this past life, you were a dreamer and a wanderer, someone who sought meaning and beauty in the world around you. You may have been an artist, poet, or philosopher, living a life filled with creativity but often marked by solitude. The reversed star card indicates that while you had immense talent and vision, you struggled with self-doubt and a fear of failure. The presence of the reversed 5 of pentacles suggests a life where material struggles or societal rejection shaped your path.

This was a life where you yearned for connection but found it difficult to sustain. You were deeply sensitive to the world’s beauty and pain, often channeling your emotions into your work. However, this sensitivity also made you vulnerable to criticism, leading to periods of isolation or withdrawal. Despite these challenges, your legacy lived on through your creations, inspiring others long after your time.

How it affects you now:

This life’s influence may manifest as a deep connection to creativity and the arts, paired with occasional feelings of inadequacy or fear of rejection. You might feel drawn to express yourself through writing, music, or visual art, but hesitate to share your work with others. There may also be moments of loneliness or a sense of being misunderstood, echoing the isolation of your past.

On the positive side, this life has gifted you with a profound ability to see beauty in the ordinary and transform pain into something meaningful. Your sensitivity is both your greatest strength and your greatest challenge, requiring you to find balance between openness and self-protection.

Message from your past self:

Do not let fear hold you back from sharing your gifts with the world. Your creativity is a light that can guide others through their own darkness. Trust in your unique perspective, and know that your vulnerability is a source of strength. You are never truly alone—your work connects you to something greater.

Astro Influences:

This group is tied to aquarius, pisces, and the 11th house, emphasizing themes of creativity, connection, and higher vision. The reversed cards suggest lessons involving neptune and saturn, teaching you to balance dreams with practicality.

Group 5

Who you were:

In this past life, you were a protector and nurturer, someone who dedicated your life to caring for others. The queen of pentacles and the reversed 3 of swords suggest that you were a healer, caretaker, or guardian, possibly a mother figure or someone in a community role. You lived a life of service, often placing others’ needs above your own. While this brought you immense fulfillment, it also came with sacrifice and heartbreak.

You were deeply connected to the earth and its cycles, finding peace and purpose in nature. However, the reversed cards indicate that this life was not without loss. Perhaps you experienced the death of loved ones or struggled with unrequited love, leaving an emotional wound that lingered beyond that lifetime. Despite these hardships, your legacy was one of love and resilience, as you touched countless lives through your kindness and strength.

How it affects you now:

This life has left an imprint on your soul, gifting you with a natural ability to nurture and support others. However, it may also manifest as a tendency to overextend yourself or neglect your own needs. You might feel a strong connection to nature or animals, finding solace in their presence. Relationships may carry echoes of past heartbreak, leading to fears of loss or rejection.

On the positive side, this life has blessed you with a deep well of compassion and strength. You have the ability to create a sense of home and belonging wherever you go, bringing comfort to those around you. Your challenge in this life is to balance giving with receiving, ensuring that your own needs are met.

Message from your past self:

Your capacity to love is immense, but do not forget to love yourself. You are worthy of the care and kindness you so freely give to others. Trust in the healing power of time, and know that your sacrifices have not been in vain. Embrace the beauty of the present and allow yourself to receive the love you deserve.

Astro Influences:

This group might resonate with taurus, virgo, and cancer, highlighting themes of nurturing, stability, and emotional depth. The presence of the 2nd and 6th houses suggests lessons related to self-worth and service.

Group 6

Who you were:

In this past life, you were a warrior or adventurer, someone who thrived on challenge and exploration. The knight of wands and the reversed tower card suggest a life of action, passion, and transformation. You were a bold and fearless individual, unafraid to take risks and face the unknown. However, this life was also marked by upheaval and conflict, as your pursuit of adventure often brought you into dangerous situations.

You were likely someone who lived for the moment, valuing freedom above all else. This independent spirit made you a natural leader, inspiring others with your courage and determination. However, the reversed tower indicates that this life was not without consequences. Your impulsive nature may have led to moments of loss or regret, teaching you hard lessons about balance and restraint.

How it affects you now:

This past life’s influence may manifest as a restless energy or a desire for constant change. You might feel drawn to adventure or travel, seeking new experiences to satisfy an inner longing for freedom. However, there may also be a tendency to act impulsively or avoid commitment, echoing the challenges of your past.

On the positive side, this life has gifted you with courage, resilience, and a zest for life. You have the ability to inspire others and lead with confidence, but it requires you to channel your energy wisely. Learning to balance spontaneity with stability is a key lesson in this life.

Message from your past self:

Embrace your adventurous spirit, but do not fear stillness. There is strength in patience and wisdom in reflection. Trust in your ability to overcome any challenge, and remember that true freedom comes from within. You are capable of creating a life that balances passion with purpose.

Astro Influences:

This group seems tied to sagittarius, aries, and the 9th house, emphasizing themes of adventure, exploration, and personal growth. The reversed cards suggest lessons related to mars and uranus, teaching you to harness your energy constructively.

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[sunanthrope]

I personally believe in past lives, but I don't consider myself to be a spiritual therian

that being said. I had this dream that I still remember. very vivid, a recurring dream. I'm not sure if it was a past life memory or just a wish, just something part of my subconscious wants to have been.

Dream below cut, taken from multiple excerpts of pages of my dream journals:

I was a military dog. Extremely old, at the end of my rope. My handler was a vet too, and we retired together. An old man.

He took me to Christmas to meet his grandkids. I lied on the rug by the Christmas tree, in front of the fireplace. I could see my paws. The rug smelled like wine and pumpkin pie from Thanksgiving. My handler's grandchildren sat around me, petting me, while the adults talked. Scraps of wrapping paper lie around me, reflecting the light of the flames in the mantle. I sniffed one of those papers. It smelled like fruitcake on the fingers of little children.

I had never met these people, but they were home. I felt safe. I remember that, I felt safe. I felt proud, like I had done good in my life. Like I was a dog who truly lived up to the name of man's best friend.

I knew it was time, and I was okay with that. Somehow, someone noticed. I remember someone saying something about how it would be their luck to have a dog die on their carpet on Christmas. I couldn't be bothered. I don't think anyone liked that aunt anyway. She smelled rude.

One of the little girls started crying. I licked her hand while my handler went and got me a bowl of water. It was made of porcelain. The paintings on it still vary, but usually they're flowers, or some kind of Thanksgiving decorations. I drank the water while my handler explained to the children.

"Don't be sad," he said, "Chief is going to a better place. Maybe he'll come back as another living being."

Chief. In every version of this dream, it's always Chief. My name. My ears still perk when I hear it, even though I'm half deaf and going blind. The flames flicker. I finish drinking my water. The bowl still has some left in the bottom, but I'm not thirsty. I'm just tired.

The crying little girl hugs me around the neck. Maybe if I was a younger dog, I would have growled at her. But now, it's a welcome affection. Sometimes her name is Allie. Sometimes it's Anna. Always, she has pigtails.

My handler comes and sits beside me on the rug. He is an old man, and it will be hard for him to stand back up, but I'm not sure he minds. He smiles at me, but he smells sad.

I lie my head in his lap. As I close my eyes, he takes my paw into his hand.

When I open my eyes again, my hand is empty.

[a-dragons-journal]

Forgot to record this day-of, but had a very abrupt memory unlock the other day - I've been having my lunches down by the river near my work basically daily, and I had a moment of wishing nothing more than to slide into the water and swim around for a bit under the surface, then got an extremely abrupt memory of doing exactly that in dragon form, with almost perfectly clear underwater vision (though the water itself was relatively green and murky, as rivers often are). Snapped out of it and suddenly had a phantom second set of eyelids, which I've kind of experienced before but wasn't certain if they were "real" or just cameos.

I guess that's confirmation that I did have a second set of transparent eyelids that function as water lids, though! Probably mostly they're for flight and high-wind/rain purposes, but still interesting to see.

[wanderingcritter]

Hey just wanted to come out and say real quick that I think I've confirmed a new kintype. It actually falls under a whole new category of alterhumanity that I've never been in before.

I am Post Apocalyptic Survivor Conceptkin

Trying to figure this out was... certainly a challenge. Quite honestly I'm still not 1000% sure that is exactly what I'm experiencing, but for the time being it feels right.

This is an identity that is very deeply rooted in my sense of self and is a very personal experience. I struggle to even properly explain what this identity feels like, as there aren't really words in the english language (or any other language that I'm aware of) to describe the extremely abstract thoughts and emotions that come with it. The best way I can describe it is it just feels like something that's intertwined with the essence of my being, like I can just sense it all around me in the most subtle ways. I believe it's spiritual in nature, maybe stemming from a past (or future??) life. I think I have some vague memories of it, but it's hard to say because they don't feel like memories from a specific individual, hence why I use the conceptkin label. It's something I've sorta always felt with me, lingering in the background, dropping hints that there's something much bigger than myself out there. But it's grown more and more prevalent in my life as Ive gotten older, usually making itself most apparent in the spring and summer time. It's difficult to define, everytime I try to focus on it and make out any specifics it squirms out of my reach, like trying to remember a hazy dream from the previous night. Sometimes I'll see or hear something that strikes something familiar in me and I'll know Ive found another small piece to the puzzle, but I greatly struggle to make rational sense of it. But there are a few things I think I know for sure about it. Here are some things that remind of and make me feel more connected to it.

☣️🌿• TV Shows/Movies: Kipo and The Age of the Wonderbeasts, Ghostbusters II: Frozen Empire, I Am Legend, Love Death and Robots

☣️🌿• Video Games: The Last of Us

☣️🌿• Books: The 5th Wave

☣️🌿• Music: ACHE by emawk, Tumblr Girls (Christoph Andersson Remix Sped Up) by G-Eazy, Lady Killers II (Slowed Remix) by G-Eazy, Resonance (Sped Up) by Home

☣️🌿• Pics:

I don't see many other conceptkins around so if you're out there hiiiii :3 I'd love to be friends and hear about your experiences! Maybe it will help me to make sense of my own in some way. Also feel free to ask me any questions about it! ^^ I'd love to answer them and it'd probably be helpful for me to try learning to verbally express some of the things I experience lol, thank uuuu <3

[the-fire-within0]

I wonder, has anyone had any past life experiences? Frequent visions and memories popping up, seeing how you look physically, your occupation, a general idea of the time and period, and what occurred? I've been trying to trance down a couple since I held some very vivid memories/visions when I was young but I have been trying my best to find any historical associations, or archeological findings for certain locations of what I know. On top of that, some photos or particular objects that may dictate a specific time or place.

So far, I’m only aware of a few past lives, or at least the ones that have been brought to my attention. It might sound a little de-lulu, but I’m genuinely curious about others' experiences with past lives. If anyone has stories, insights, or opinions on the topic, I’d love to hear them. What are your thoughts on past life experiences, and what have you learned about them?

[backwoodsbarking]

I am mothmankin. Mothman is such a deep part of me, but i fully believe there are many mothmen. In my mind and memories, mothmen are small in number, likely only 40,000 alive. But we are strong and social. I hold so many beautiful memories and experiences from this life. And i would like to talk about it.

I was Minya, a mothman. I had two loving parents who raised me somewhat traditionally to our culture; parents raising their offspring as a group, called a familyhood, though ours was a bit more gentle than others. Our familyhood was very close, the young and old had their friendgroups, usually interweaving.

I knew my mate from birth. We grew up together, he was the largest of us kids, but also the kindest, most helpful, and (imo) prettiest. Corvak and I had a pretty problemless relationship, though our relationship was pretty non-traditional. We, unlike most mothmen, were nearly mutually exclusive. Most mothmen are completely polyamorous, but we always fell back to each other, not taking other partners for 4+ months at a time.

We never had kids. I died pretty young, like 34 in a human lifetime. We never got around to it before that.

I dont really know what else to talk about. There's so much good and so much bad and i dont know where to begin talking about all of it.

[creature-wizard]

I have had "past life memories" but I'm also very much skeptical of reincarnation and am inclined to believe these are false memories. However the feelings and experiences are still very real to me. Do you have advice about how I should deal with this, if I should continue experimenting with these memories, and what mindset I should approach them with if I do so?

Think of them as dreams! Dreams can be deeply meaningful and personally relevant without necessarily reflecting anything literally true about the physical world. Go ahead and experiment if you want, but try and analyze/interpret them as if they're dreams.

[moonpool-system]

Contact / Empty Hope

from an exomemory

[our-inspire-verse]

I've come to make an announcement: Lilith the she demon's a bitch-ass motherfucker. SHe pissed on my fucking wife. That's right. She took her demonic fuckin' quilly dick out and she pissed on my FUCKING wife, and she said her dick was THIS BIG, and I said that's disgusting. So I'm making a callout post on my Twitter.com. Lilith the Demon Woman, you got a small dick. It's the size of this walnut except WAY smaller. And guess what? Here's what my dong looks like. That's right, baby. Tall points, no spikes, no boobs, look at that, it looks like two balls and a bong. She fucked my wife, so guess what, I'm gonna fuck hell. That's right, this is what you get! My SUPER LASER PISS! Except I'm not gonna piss on hell. I'm gonna go higher. I'm pissing on HEAVENNNN! How do you like that, SERA? I PISSED ON HEAVEN, YOU IDIOT! You have twenty-three hours before the piss DROPLETS hit fucking HELL, now get out of my fucking sight before I piss on you too! - our Lucifer at Lilith about Al

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I've come to make an announcement: Shadow the Hedgehog's a bitch-ass motherfucker. He pissed on my fucking wife. That's right. He took his hedgehog fuckin' quilly dick out and he pissed on my FUCKING wife, and he said his dick was THIS BIG, and I said that's disgusting. So I'm making a callout post on my Twitter.com. Shadow the Hedgehog, you got a small dick. It's the size of this walnut except WAY smaller. And guess what? Here's what my dong looks like. That's right, baby. Tall points, no quills, no pillows, look at that, it looks like two balls and a bong. He fucked my wife, so guess what, I'm gonna fuck the earth. That's right, this is what you get! My SUPER LASER PISS! Except I'm not gonna piss on the earth. I'm gonna go higher. I'm pissing on the MOOOON! How do you like that, OBAMA? I PISSED ON THE MOON, YOU IDIOT! You have twenty-three hours before the piss DROPLETS hit the fucking earth, now get out of my fucking sight before I piss on you too!

[shayandwildlifepack]

Time for more bad memories from my life as Zuki. I have debated about posting this a few times but I think I need to, to get it off my chest or whatever you wanna say.

Tw/cw: (failed) suicide attempt, suicidal thoughts, self harm, death of a family member, grief, and abuse. Let me know if I missed any tw/cw.

There were times right after I turned 14 years old as Zuki (my aunt, who I looked up to so much, died on my 14th birthday so yeah) that I ended up going to the top of my middle school building [I couldn't fly at the time] and was debating jumping from it, I never did.

But a few days after my 14th birthday, all the grief and anger and shit I felt from my aunt's death (she was a hero, and she died fighting some villains) had gotten to be too much for me to deal with and I went to a part of the middle school that pretty much no one went to and pretty much everyone wouldn't have cared about me anyways.

Anyway, I went to the secluded place of the school and I had a knife in my backpack, I always carried it with me, not only because of self-harm tendencies but also because it was a gift from my aunt who died. I thought I was alone, cause who in their right mind would be in this part of that school? (Neither of us there were in our right mind, so I guess that answers that, lol).

Anyway, I took the knife and cut pretty deep on my arms and legs. I had put down something, I think it was my jacket, to try and make less of a mess with the blood cause I didn't wanna cause too much more trouble, lol. But someone who I didn't really know well (I kinda wish it stayed that way, but whatever) came and helped me to the nurse's room. If that nurse could have let me just die, she would've, but she didn't wanna get in trouble with my older sibling, lol.

Anyways, that nurse just did the bare minium, so I wouldn't die. I talked a bit with the girl who saved me. She seemed nice (seemed is the key word there). After the school day ended, it was like only an hour or so cause I did this during my free period, which was my last 'class' of the day. After the bell rang, I walked to a little medical building that [mainly] was for those with no quirks, hated quirks, etc. So because of this, it didn't have a mandatory reporting thing, which was good for me, cause I didn't want anyone else to know that I tried to kill myself and failed. But yeah, the lady who helped me then was very nice and I would continue to go there when I needed medical stuff.

The girl who saved me, about a week or so later, came up to me and said she liked me romantically. While I am (was?) cupioromantic, I didn't know that at the time, so I thought I liked her romantically as well, so I told her that and we started dating.

It was great at first, but after about 2 weeks or so of dating, she started to hurt me, while I did technically know this wasn't good, I had believed it had to be different here and that she was still good and everything (she wasn't, the abusive asshole).

Eventually, when I was like 15 and ½ years old or something like that, I realized I didn't feel romantic attraction at all and told my 'girlfriend' and broke up with her. It didn't go well.

She ended up stabbing me a few times, shit happened. Afterwards, I went to that same medical building I mentioned before and they helped me not die.

Eventually, I realized that my ex was probably only with me cause she wanted someone easy to hurt and shit. Idk just probably wasn't love from her end.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it) | I could go more into detail about probably all of this but I'm not gonna right now

[dr-alto-cowboy]

Memory Dump!! One of my first missions working at the GOC I think but I'm unsure.

My timeline went from: High School -> US Army (Air Force) -> GOC -> Scp Foundation

After a realitively short time working for the Air Force (not even a full year after basic training), the Cheif of Staff personally took me aside and told me he was assigning me to an outside organization that still worked for the government called the GOC.

I didn't ask about what that stood for or what that meant. In that time of my life, I was very lost and didn't really care which direction I was pulled in, and it seemed like it was a good opportunity if the Chief handed this to me personally.

Still in denial about myself being a reality bender or what that even meant also.

Cut bc it's long. Tw if you don't like shady shit and heads exploding.

I was tasked with finding out if this old guy's memory was intact enough to tell me things.

He may have had a degenerative brain disease or something, and they wanted me to get information out of him.

I wasn't trained to do anything like that. My new boss just told me, "Don't worry about it"

So, I showed up to his house a couple of hours early before I was supposed to check his memory (my boss told me to do this)

But this older lady is there (not as old as him but definitely over 70), and I'm like, "Oh hey" bc no one told me she was gonna be there.

And she starts out all aggressive and hollering at me. "Who the hell are!! you go away!! get out of my house!!"

I tell her, "I don't want any trouble. I'm just here to check on this old guy!!"

I make a quick assumption that she doesn't even know where anything is- seeing as she's rifling through the drawers (probably looking for a knife)

So I call her out on that assumption

I said "Hey bitch I know this isn't your house!!"

And she and I get into a physical altercation bc she fucking jumps on me with a knife she found as soon as I said that. I didn't bring a gun with me because I wasn't briefed that this was at all gonna become that type of situation.

(Never made that mistake again)

And I freak out bc I wasn't expecting a 70 year old woman to JUMP on my like fucking spiderman- and while I knew what to do in hand to hand combat situations like this where someone has a weapon and I don't- I just wasnt expecting that.

So we start "fighting," (mostly me just pushing her away from me- if she tried to slash or stab me she didn't try very hard bc I was barely cut up)

and I'm also struggling bc I also don't want to hurt her- I think she might be unwell more than anything.

I'm trying to yell at her and reason with her, but she is not listening

Eventually, she triggers something in the door way like a booby trap?? and a small pipe bomb lookin thing falls from the ceiling (we are still extremely close to each other)

So I backed up a little and beg her to stop, beg her to pay attention, but I was only able to get like 2/3 words out, and she doesn't hear me/listen to me.(BECAUSE THIS ALL HAPPENED AT THE SAME TIME IN LESS THAN 2 SECONDS) I duck down for cover as the bomb explodes her head

But all her bits still get all over me, and it's gross, and it stinks, and someone who was alive just a second ago is no longer alive. But I decide to not deal with any of that for a second.

The bomb's placement was weird though,, there were no other traps in the house, I checked after that happened, but the spot it hit her was right where I would have been walking to go see the guy. And I make note of that. Because I don't think the old guy or the old woman did that.

I contact my boss explain the situation to him, he tells me she planted it and to be careful because she is crazy and known to do wild things.

Which..COULD HAVE BEEN USEFUL INFORMATION B E F O R E I WAS SENT ALONE IN THE HOUSE. But whatever

But I respond, "But sir, she's dead?" And he hangs up the phone

And I'm like.. okay??

I still haven't met the old man, but a team of people dressed black military gear come in about 40 minutes and clean up the body (no GOC logo, no nothing. just blacked out) But I recognized some of them, so I knew they were GOC.

While I was waiting for them, I cleaned up the shit all over me, and luckily, it didn't seem like it was very noticeable on the clothes I was wearing.

I ask them who she was, and they inform me her name is Catherine

I shrug it off and it's time to meet the old man soon anyways. Still no information about him other than he's "an elderly person named [redacted] who might be able to help us." (I don't remember his name)

More people show up after the body is cleared out- mostly normal looking people?? Like civilian looking people maybe therapists or doctors or something like that??

But also, one of my coworkers showed up! Who I remember I really liked. Don't remember his name now though.

I go to sit with the old man, he's bald in a rocking chair, his eyes look mostly closed.

I feel extremely unqualified to do this for whatever reason.

My coworker that I like is sitting next to me and the old man (I remember him being so baby faced at that time)

And there is also a small crowd of people watching me.

I just start out with "Hello my name is [redacted]" (couldn't remember what I said)

"Are you Mr [also redacted]?" (couldn't remember what he said)

He makes a noise and grunts in response which I take as a yes

The group of people around me are talking to each other in excited whispers and smiling all big and shit and one of the guys in the military gear goes

"Alright, let's give the doctor some space back outta here come on"

And I think that's so suspicious I think they hyped me up to these people as some kind of miracle worker and I have no clue why.

Anyways we get to talking about normal shit

"Do you know where you are?" Silence

"Do you know what's going on"

He says "you're here to see me about" and he mumbles some shit that doesn't rlly make sense

And he starts talking about his wife "Where's Cathie,, I need her for" mumbles off

And I ask him "who's Cathie?" He says "my wife"

And I'm like ohhhh shit I just watched her head explode... but this old guy can not see how nervous I am so it doesn't matter

I said "Do you have any children?"

He starts to talk but then says "I..I cant" and he seems really stressed out by that question so I change topics immediately and go

"What about your wife, Catherine, do you remember your wedding?"

He doesn't respond

I look at my coworker, and he looks a little nervous and unsure.

At this point I realize this guy can't give me any information I can't ask him any questions that would be important to my boss.

My coworker leaves the room first and after a minute I follow him.

A guy dressed in military gear all black asks me "so?? Did you get anything?" And I responded "No, he's not able to answer my questions."

The guy in all black goes (his name might have been Robbie/Robert) "Not even a key??"

And I ask "a key?"

And he goes "you know! Dudes got some money around here somewhere,"

We're right next to a gun case that mostly has trinkets and hunting gear in it but there is also a key with a label and he says "or in here I'd love to get in here.."

And I decide to ignore his ass and walk past him to a different military guy and told him, "Hey he was unresponsive."

He nods and hands me a gun and tells me

"Okay. Go ahead and kill him then." (They used a nicer word than 'kill him', but I don't remember)

And I was SO nervous and caught off gaurd I said "w what??"

And they laugh at me and say "go on! Boss's orders" they hand me a sweat shirt and say "Hide it under here so he doesn't see you have it, I'll clear the guests out"

I'm so shaky at this point, and Im not sure why. The gun feels SO heavy in my hands. Even though it's just like a 9mm. I start walking away, trying to fumble the sweat shirt while walking, and fumbling to flip the safety off

Which they also. Laugh at me for not doing.

But I keep stalling. I'm so nervous, like "I-I don't know I"

It's not like I'd never had to kill someone before but this was just some old dude who seemed incredibly harmless.

And eventually they go "If you dont kill him we're gonna kill you."

And I'm like damn okay ig

So a guard comes with me to make sure I kill him and we open the door, and the dude is FROZEN solid.

Like a fucking ice cube he's got icecicles off him

And I'm like "WHAT. THE FUCK.'" and they are so casual and call it in and go "Oh well I guess he's neutralized, you got lucky."

He yells to the rest of the gaurd "Get this guy outta here before Cathrine takes the rest of him" and a bunch of people rush in and grab him by his chair and rush him out.

I'm just standing there. I'm hella confused and the whole day just seemed like a brain fuck.

Me and my coworker and I liked sat in the back seat of a vehicle and didn't say anything to each other the ride back to base.

[entity56]

If these memories i'm getting arent just a figment of my imagination it means A) God (or at least the Christian idea of heaven) exists and B) his way of dropping new souls into bodies is literally throwing them out onto Earth like snowflakes

[switchbladeheaven]

angelkin memory unlocked omg

it was a good idea to add angel milk to my lattes because oh my word I remember drinking this in the skies

[a-dragons-journal]

Had incredibly chaotic dreams last night, but among them was flight (in full dragonshape! Something that almost never happens!) over a large and wild river cutting through a canyon, more difficult than I expected as I was buffeted by the chaotic winds produced by the water below. It was both cool to feel - my dream-flight is often semi-unrealistic and weightless - and interesting in light of it feeling sharp and clear enough to be memory, rather than just something my brain produced; I didn't think the river running through my territory was large or rough enough to produce such wind effects over it, but perhaps it was at some point, or perhaps I encountered such a water-and-wind feature during my travels seeking a territory while young?

...Hm. Interesting. Feels like there should be a word for the way water affects wind currents above it. I'm not finding one in English in a quick search, but I think we have one. Weird! That's not a usual brand of noema for me!

[im-the-mastermind]

Hi. We're not one to ask for folks to talk to us. But we would really appreciate if you could ask or talk to us about our fallen angel kin life. You can just ask us random questions or whatever else.

Just stuck in a strong shift and miss it a lot right now.

We may not get to it right away or even tonight as it's late for us and are busy tomorrow, but will try to get to it soon.

Thank you if you do, and it's understandable if not.

/not forced

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